Guruvir

So, it has been a while since I have posted anything, and I could beat myself up about it, but I’m not going to. I was on a goat’s milk fast, and I don’t believe in writer’s block. As I say with this kind of creative endeavor, as with transformation, and all about-to-be-born things: sometimes, you just have to wait while it incubates.

What has been on my mind for the last month, is how to make this site a sacred site. By which I mean: first, is it possible for a website to hold some kind of sacred energy? second, can you decide to put that energy there, or do the gods just strike you with it like a flower on a million lilly pads? third, what does one do to make a sacred (web)site?

After much thought, some trips to the library, meditation and so on, I have decided that it is possible. This kind of sacred site though wouldn’t be like other sites, where upon entering you feel the vastness of the temple, the hours of prayer hanging in the air, the generations of devotion misting over your eyes. Those experiences are direct, un-mediated, we can say. You enter the temple and boom! You touch the stone and wham! — currents of existence rush from where they are being held, right into you.

I can’t have you touch my web-page you’ll get your fingerprints all over it. Moreover, I’m not really sure that there is an actual “page” anywhere to touch. I mean I know how the website happened: Wordpress, my friend Han giving me detailed explanations of how to upload content onto her beautiful design (www.yuindustries.com), me uploading content and watching it magically appear on the Internet. But where is it really? Wordpress? guruvir.com? the files on my computer? the window on your computer? or, the window on your computer? OR, the window on your computer? Well, you get it. I would say its reflection is in all of these places, like a hall of mirrors, but the thing itself is somewhere else entirely.

The thing itself: What I mean by “the thing itself” is the energetic pulse of the website, because surely it has one. Where is that? Is it in me? I don’t really think so. My sense is that this website has a pulse somewhere beyond me, bigger than me, including all of you in some kind of internet synergy. We constitute the pulse.

So, if there is a pulse, would that pulse be more of a pulse if it had a home in the physical world. Like some websites have offices where they are run with lots of people bustling around. Others are scattered between many people, in their homes, in coffee shops typing away. Others hold the energy of a particular group: astronauts, rare flower enthusiasts, cupcake makers.

What I know is that this site is definitely happening in my room as I type and mull about what I will type, and in your space as you read it, and so maybe we are a group? Kundalini yogis? People who know me? My mom? But not everyone reading does Kundalini yoga or knows me, my mom fits both. Instead, there is something more common between all of us, maybe we are all people on a path, on any path, at many stages of awareness, all seeking to do this spiritual thing, with cell phones and laptops and (shhh…coffee). Maybe this can be a modern sacred site, where all of those things can be allowed, celebrated, and engaged as pieces of our collective transformation.

So we all hold the pulse.

But still I yearn to locate it, to give it a physical home.

COMING SOON: how to initiate a sacred internet site? can you? a virtual altar?